HOW WILL I COPE? - Episode 3 I am a woman of the deen, I admit! I understand this deen very well, Alhamdulillah! I know polygamy is an accepted and authorized sanction by Allah, I am very well aware! I also want to be patient and accept this like most of the Sahabiyyats and the pious women out there but am just finding it so difficult. Maybe because I have a small body so my heart is so small to just accept this! Maybe because am thinking his love for me has already been depreciating...! Thinking! Thinking! Thinking!...! All these thinking alone drives me to stupor. How I wish he could take back his words. My love for him has already become an attachment, so how could I withstand sharing him with another woman?..; These words keep popping in my mind as I hold him tight, I can't help the tears rolling from my eyes. I hate him seeing me crying over this, he expects me to understand and I try but I find it difficult. Maybe I may be able to perpend if he gives me a tan...
HOW WILL I COPE? - Episode 7 It is Sunday morning! I get up very early around 5 to have my haedoh bath. I don't come along with an extra clothe because I thought I will be spending only a night at most not knowing both of them will tie me down till today. I wonder what they want to say to habeeby that make them insist that he should come. It is really pissing me off! After my bath, I change to one of Ummy's clothes and I wash mine. I pray my fajr and start my adhkars afterward. I haven't done half of the morning adhkars I usually do when I start dozing. I don't really know what is going on with me these days, I have been feeling dizzy, headaches, loss of appetite and I also sleep a lot. I thought it is malaria and I have used various antimalaria drugs but am still not getting myself. I think I have to visit our doctor. I leave the musalah and dive in the bed. I am about to enter my dream land when I hear some tiny knocks, that should be Yaseer, I guess. ...
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